Friday, October 8, 2010
September 8, 2010
Someone sent this to me this morning, and it gave me hope for this country. THANK YOU GOD FOR OUR FOUNDING FATHERS!! THANK YOU GOD FOR AMERICA!!
I love You, Jesus!!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
September 7, 2010
I was VERY disturbed by something that I saw on the news yesterday!! That a CHURCH is saying "THANK GOD FOR IEDs" and "THANK GOD FOR DEAD SOLDIERS"...that "GOD HATES AMERICA" and just HATEFUL, HATEFUL things!! They burned a Quran and they burned a flag!!
These people - who proclaim to bear my name of Christian - made me cry!! "GOD DOES NOT HATE ANYONE!!" God hates SIN - not the SINNER!! I read that these people are planning to spread hate by picketing Arlington Cemetery on Veteran's Day and Moody Bible Institute.
This is what God's Word REALLY says,
"If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen."
At first, I felt "We need to send these people to Afghanistan to face what these soldiers - including my son - have to face everyday!!" and "I'd like to see our military lined up in front of Arlington with their AKs to let these peole know what they think of their hate." But, then, as I read some of the things on their website, I felt SO sorry for these people, because God's wrath WILL rain down on them for proclaiming hate in Jesus name! These people are not worshipping MY God...They are worshipping this man who is calling himself a profit and a pastor! These people need PRAYER and LOTS of it!!!!!
But, in keeping to the theme of my blog, I want to thank God for our soldiers who put their lives on the line every day so these people will have the FREEDOM they enjoy and can live in SAFETY!! I want to thank God for those fallen heroes who gave their lives so courageously for the same reasons!! I want to thank God for America because, though we have our problems and sometimes hurt spitefully, we ARE the BEST nation by far!! And, I want to thank God that He loves EVERYONE and has mercy on even the HATEMONGER!
I am a Christian and I love God with all my heart and soul...The God who I worship is a loving, merciful, and just God! He came so that we might have LIFE...He died so that we could live FREE! My God helps people who don't deserve it! And, even His last words held love, "Forgive them, for they know not what they do!"
"Father, I want to hate these people, but I can't because You love even them!! I beg You to touch their hearts that they will see the REAL You and stop spreading such hate! I pray that they will stop hurting others for spite! I pray that You will soften their hard hearts and take Satan's hands off of them! This "church" is making people think that true Christians...and YOU, hate people. I KNOW this isn't true!! I know You LOVE everyone...and only hate the things that they do! Please Lord, save these people BEFORE it's eternally too late!!"
These people - who proclaim to bear my name of Christian - made me cry!! "GOD DOES NOT HATE ANYONE!!" God hates SIN - not the SINNER!! I read that these people are planning to spread hate by picketing Arlington Cemetery on Veteran's Day and Moody Bible Institute.
This is what God's Word REALLY says,
"If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen."
At first, I felt "We need to send these people to Afghanistan to face what these soldiers - including my son - have to face everyday!!" and "I'd like to see our military lined up in front of Arlington with their AKs to let these peole know what they think of their hate." But, then, as I read some of the things on their website, I felt SO sorry for these people, because God's wrath WILL rain down on them for proclaiming hate in Jesus name! These people are not worshipping MY God...They are worshipping this man who is calling himself a profit and a pastor! These people need PRAYER and LOTS of it!!!!!
But, in keeping to the theme of my blog, I want to thank God for our soldiers who put their lives on the line every day so these people will have the FREEDOM they enjoy and can live in SAFETY!! I want to thank God for those fallen heroes who gave their lives so courageously for the same reasons!! I want to thank God for America because, though we have our problems and sometimes hurt spitefully, we ARE the BEST nation by far!! And, I want to thank God that He loves EVERYONE and has mercy on even the HATEMONGER!
I am a Christian and I love God with all my heart and soul...The God who I worship is a loving, merciful, and just God! He came so that we might have LIFE...He died so that we could live FREE! My God helps people who don't deserve it! And, even His last words held love, "Forgive them, for they know not what they do!"
"Father, I want to hate these people, but I can't because You love even them!! I beg You to touch their hearts that they will see the REAL You and stop spreading such hate! I pray that they will stop hurting others for spite! I pray that You will soften their hard hearts and take Satan's hands off of them! This "church" is making people think that true Christians...and YOU, hate people. I KNOW this isn't true!! I know You LOVE everyone...and only hate the things that they do! Please Lord, save these people BEFORE it's eternally too late!!"
I love You, Jesus!!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
October 6, 2010
Hi Ya'll...my Internet has been down again...think it may be time to change service.
Allergies are bothering me today, so I'm just gonna "COUNT MY BLESSINGS" today...
Allergies are bothering me today, so I'm just gonna "COUNT MY BLESSINGS" today...
Thank You Jesus for...
My salvation, my decent health (that it's not worse), my writing, my SSDI
Danny, Danny's job, our house, our truck, food, his good health
Clayton, his safety, his good job, his salvation, Ashley, Aedan, Bryan, Caleb, A,A,B,&C health
Steven, his safety, his job, his salvation, his call to the ministry, his health, Penelope, Hannah, P & H health, that Penelope was able to get her WII and start getting healthy again
John, Raynelle, Gino, Kathy, their family, Chris, Lynn, their family
Gary, Alice, Tara, Peter, Dasani, JadaLynn, Malachai
Tom, Tracy, Ryan, Rheanna, Sean, Isaiah, KeKe, Angel, Cassidy
Linda, John, Jennifer, Rob, Little Bit, James, Jimmy
Roger Daniel, Jessica, Nick, their family, Sean D, Alli, their family
Our time with Pam
Kenny, Nona, Laura, her new husband, Karrie, Joshua
Dad Henry
Our church and church family
I could go on ALL day because God has blessed me SO greatly
I love You, Jesus!!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
October 3, 2010
Today I'm gonna talk about a subject that I am VERY passionate about...my children - and grandchildren!!
Tomorrow I will tell Clayton goodbye again. He'll only be gone for two months this time, but it'll still break my heart to see him go. God blessed me twenty-seven years ago when he placed Clayton in my womb...It was my wedding night!! His daddy had to leave two weeks later to go to Germany. He too, was in the Army. Clayton and I spent precious bonding time by ourselves,but I know he missed his daddy. Danny didn't even know that he'd been born until he was 4 days old. He didn't see him until he was 5 months old...and then for only a few days - until he was 18 months old. But I got to spend that time holding him, reading to him, praying for him, and loving him. He has always been precious to my heart!!
By the way, not to get on my soapbox too long, but another passion to me... I had Toxemia early on and the doctors at the Navy hospital told me that I would die if I didn't "terminate" my pregnancy. They even went so far as to tell me that Danny had already signed the papers...He didn't even know I was sick! I was ready to divorce him in order to keep my baby, but they didn't press the issue when I called for the JAG officer! Anyway, it WAS a hard pregnancy. I was sick every day and I had pre-eclampsia the day I had him, but...I am ALIVE and SO IS HE!! He's smart and he has put his life on the line many times to rescue others. ONLY God knows the future, and ONLY He has the right to take a baby's life!! God knew Clayton would live and save lives. The doctors didn't know what they were talking about! Psalms 139 says that God knew us and EVERY part of us BEFORE we were even born!! HE knits us together and forms us to be the way HE wants us to be...Clayton is God's son! OFF MY SOAPBOX NOW...lol!!
I will pray for Clayton tomorrow and every day until he returns...and every day of his life. He is my heart!!
Well, just eighteen months after Clayton was born, God opened my heart and sent my precious Steven to me. I almost lost him, too, but God healed him and gave him to me to bless my heart. He began to tell people about God when he was only seven years old and I knew then that he would do great things for God's kingdom. When he was in high school, he blessed my heart when he told me that God had called him to give his life to full-time ministry.
He will graduate on December 10, with a Bachelor's degree in Ministry Studies and will go on to seminary soon after. I am SO SO proud of him!! He is my heart!!
Seven years ago God gave me my first daughter when He gave Ashley to Clayton. She too is my heart. My first grandchild came four years later. Aedan stole my heart and I love him so much!! Just a month ago their twins were born and Bryan and Caleb became my heart,also! God bless Clayton and Ashley and their sons, as they mean SO much to me!! THANK YOU GOD FOR THEM!!
Almost two years ago God sent me another daughter when He gave Penelope to Steven. She has blessed my heart and gave me my first grand daughter nine months later when ANGEL EYES, Hannah was born. She is the apple of my eye and ALSO my heart!! God, please bless Steven and Penelope and Hannah because they mean SO much to me!! THANK YOU GOD FOR THEM!!
God has blessed my heart and my life with children and grandchildren to love and help grow into His sons and daughters. I will pray for them daily and never stop thanking God for bringing SO MANY blessings into my life!!
Tomorrow I will tell Clayton goodbye again. He'll only be gone for two months this time, but it'll still break my heart to see him go. God blessed me twenty-seven years ago when he placed Clayton in my womb...It was my wedding night!! His daddy had to leave two weeks later to go to Germany. He too, was in the Army. Clayton and I spent precious bonding time by ourselves,but I know he missed his daddy. Danny didn't even know that he'd been born until he was 4 days old. He didn't see him until he was 5 months old...and then for only a few days - until he was 18 months old. But I got to spend that time holding him, reading to him, praying for him, and loving him. He has always been precious to my heart!!
By the way, not to get on my soapbox too long, but another passion to me... I had Toxemia early on and the doctors at the Navy hospital told me that I would die if I didn't "terminate" my pregnancy. They even went so far as to tell me that Danny had already signed the papers...He didn't even know I was sick! I was ready to divorce him in order to keep my baby, but they didn't press the issue when I called for the JAG officer! Anyway, it WAS a hard pregnancy. I was sick every day and I had pre-eclampsia the day I had him, but...I am ALIVE and SO IS HE!! He's smart and he has put his life on the line many times to rescue others. ONLY God knows the future, and ONLY He has the right to take a baby's life!! God knew Clayton would live and save lives. The doctors didn't know what they were talking about! Psalms 139 says that God knew us and EVERY part of us BEFORE we were even born!! HE knits us together and forms us to be the way HE wants us to be...Clayton is God's son! OFF MY SOAPBOX NOW...lol!!
I will pray for Clayton tomorrow and every day until he returns...and every day of his life. He is my heart!!
Well, just eighteen months after Clayton was born, God opened my heart and sent my precious Steven to me. I almost lost him, too, but God healed him and gave him to me to bless my heart. He began to tell people about God when he was only seven years old and I knew then that he would do great things for God's kingdom. When he was in high school, he blessed my heart when he told me that God had called him to give his life to full-time ministry.
He will graduate on December 10, with a Bachelor's degree in Ministry Studies and will go on to seminary soon after. I am SO SO proud of him!! He is my heart!!
Seven years ago God gave me my first daughter when He gave Ashley to Clayton. She too is my heart. My first grandchild came four years later. Aedan stole my heart and I love him so much!! Just a month ago their twins were born and Bryan and Caleb became my heart,also! God bless Clayton and Ashley and their sons, as they mean SO much to me!! THANK YOU GOD FOR THEM!!
Almost two years ago God sent me another daughter when He gave Penelope to Steven. She has blessed my heart and gave me my first grand daughter nine months later when ANGEL EYES, Hannah was born. She is the apple of my eye and ALSO my heart!! God, please bless Steven and Penelope and Hannah because they mean SO much to me!! THANK YOU GOD FOR THEM!!
God has blessed my heart and my life with children and grandchildren to love and help grow into His sons and daughters. I will pray for them daily and never stop thanking God for bringing SO MANY blessings into my life!!
I love You, Jesus!!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
October 2, 2010
Sorry ya'll! Somebody cut three big telephone wires, so I spent a few days without a phone or Internet. I'm back now, though!! :)
Today I picked out a couple poems that I wrote in the past - that just say, "Thank You!!"
This first one I wrote 26 years ago when my eldest son was just a year old, but it is still appropriate with a 26 year old and a 24 year old. I still thank God for them EVERY DAY!!
Today I picked out a couple poems that I wrote in the past - that just say, "Thank You!!"
This first one I wrote 26 years ago when my eldest son was just a year old, but it is still appropriate with a 26 year old and a 24 year old. I still thank God for them EVERY DAY!!
Lord, Thank You for My Blessings
Lord, thank You for my little boy
Thank You for my big one, too
Thank you for the little one I'm carrying
I'm ecstatic and the credit goes to You
You've showed me that the almighty dollar
Isn't worth all the time and the worry
You've showed me You're going to work thinks out
If I'll not be in such a big hurry
You've showed me my biggest blessings
Opened my eyes to see
The things that should make me happiest
Are right here in front of me
You've reminded me of my salvation
How You died so that I may live good
You showed me I haven't been praying
And studying Your Word like I should
You opened my eyes and stood Danny there
Emphasized all of his love
You showed me to make me happy
You sent him to me from above
Then, there's my little Clayton
He loves me and needs me I know
I could see when You sent him to me
My blessings beginning to flow
Now, I've another blessing
Growing inside of me
Thank You Lord for my blessings
Thank You for making me see
Please always keep my eyes open
Don't let me forget what You've done
You've given me my salvation
That's only blessing number one!
Today, I thank God for, not only Clayton, my soldier, but his beautiful bride, Ashley! I also thank God always for my darling grandsons, Aedan, Bryan, and Caleb! The baby I carried that I thank God for every day, is Steven. He's studying to be a pastor. I thank God for his bride, Penelope and my precious grand daughter, Hannah constantly, also! God has added blessings over the years, giving me love and love to share every day! I love Him SO MUCH!!
Another poem that I wrote recently is appropriate for today. I walked outside and saw a painting. God had taken his brush and placed colors all around me. He has given me SO MANY reasons to praise him EVERY DAY!!
"Thank You!!"
Oh what a beautiful morning
Oh what a beautiful day
When I feel the warmth of the sunshine
I just have to kneel down and pray
I kneel and say, "Thank You!" to Jesus
For each lovely flower I see
Then, I just have to say, "Thank You!"
For the shade of my mighty oak tree
Thank You for the dew on my roses
Thank You for the grass on the hill
Thank You for the color the phlox brings
Thank You for the sweet daffodil
Thank You for the sounds of the laughter
From the children playing down the street
Thank you for the kiss of my Danny
Each morning first thing, our lips meet
Thank you for the hugs of my sons, Lord
Each day as they rush off to school
Thank You for the teachers who teach them
To read, write, and learn every rule
Thank You for the aroma of coffee
It signals the start of my day
Thank You for the awesome priviledge
To kneel down each morning to pray
Thank You for the stroke of Your pen Lord
The the colors You paint in Your way
Oh Yes! What a beautiful morning!!
Oh Yes! What a beautiful day!!
HAVE A FANTABULOUS SATURDAY!! And, remember to Thank God for the smallest to the largest blessings He has so graciously placed in your life!
I love you, Jesus!!
Thank you, Penny, for letting everyone know why I was gone. Love you!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
September 29, 2010
Boy! This weekend was rough! It started with Danny being off Friday AND Monday and possibly Thursday and Friday of this week, too, because of no work. Then the utility company took $208 out of my account two weeks early. I couldn't see my grandbabies because I had the sniffles (they were premature and their immune systems are compromised). Yesterday we were supposed to go out with my oldest brother and sister-in-law that I haven't seen in years and they got stuck in some terrible traffic. She had the wrong number and was never able to get up with us.
But, I heard this song by the Crabb Family called, "Through the Fire". It reminded me of Isaiah 43:1-3 HCS...
1 Now this is what the LORD says—
the One who created you, Jacob,
and the One who formed you, Israel (A) —
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; (B)
I have called you by your name; you are Mine. (C)
2 I will be with you (D)
when you pass through the waters, (E)
and [when you pass] through the rivers,
they will not overwhelm you.
You will not be scorched
when you walk through the fire, (F)
and the flame will not burn you.
3 For I the LORD your God, (G)
the Holy One of Israel, and your Savior, (H)
give Egypt as a ransom for you,
Cush and Seba in your place.
The song says it's THROUGH the fire my weakness is made strong. God may not decide to deliver us FROM the fire - or the flooding waters, but PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME, He'll hold our hands and walk with us all the way to the other side!
I also love the verse in the song that says, "When the adversary says give in, just hold on MY GOD WILL SHOW UP, and He will take you through the fire again! (makes me wanna shout!!)
Before I go today I also wanna share the verse that was in our church newsletter this week. I had to cut it out and put it on my computer as a constant reminder that God will not let me fall without an outstretched hand to help me up...2 Corinthians 4:8-9a KJV...
8We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
9Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
But, I heard this song by the Crabb Family called, "Through the Fire". It reminded me of Isaiah 43:1-3 HCS...
1 Now this is what the LORD says—
the One who created you, Jacob,
and the One who formed you, Israel (A) —
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; (B)
I have called you by your name; you are Mine. (C)
2 I will be with you (D)
when you pass through the waters, (E)
and [when you pass] through the rivers,
they will not overwhelm you.
You will not be scorched
when you walk through the fire, (F)
and the flame will not burn you.
3 For I the LORD your God, (G)
the Holy One of Israel, and your Savior, (H)
give Egypt as a ransom for you,
Cush and Seba in your place.
The song says it's THROUGH the fire my weakness is made strong. God may not decide to deliver us FROM the fire - or the flooding waters, but PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME, He'll hold our hands and walk with us all the way to the other side!
I also love the verse in the song that says, "When the adversary says give in, just hold on MY GOD WILL SHOW UP, and He will take you through the fire again! (makes me wanna shout!!)
Before I go today I also wanna share the verse that was in our church newsletter this week. I had to cut it out and put it on my computer as a constant reminder that God will not let me fall without an outstretched hand to help me up...2 Corinthians 4:8-9a KJV...
8We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
9Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
Reach Out and Just Hold On
When you get depressed and down and out
And wish someone would care,
Just reach out and hold on tight
'Cause Jesus is always there.
You feel like you've lost your very best friend
Wish someone would just take your hand
Just reach out and hold on now
'Cause Jesus will understand.
If you have a problem that's too much to handle
The Lord's right by your side
If you'll just reach out and take His hand
Jesus will be your guide.
So, the next time you have a problem
Wish God would just take you home
Remember He's standing at your left and your right
If you'll reach out and just hold on.
He has our back ALWAYS!!
I love You, Jesus!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
September 28, 2010
Good morning!
Today, my oldest brother, that I haven’t seen in years, is coming to visit!! It makes me think of the verse that says, “There is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.” I’m thanking the Lord SO much for my brothers and my sisters…and FRIENDS - because if I ever find one that sticks closer to me than my siblings, I’m gonna hold on for dear life!
Brothers in Colorado, South Carolina, and Florida and a sister in Florida…all more than 400 miles away. I have no doubt that any of my brothers or my sister would give me the shirt off their back if they thought I needed it. I also have no doubt that they’d move hell and high water to get to my bedside if I called them. I can call them at two o’clock in the morning - and have - to ask them to pray…and they DO!! The same goes for me…Any time of day or night, any where on this earth…If I can make it happen, I WILL be there for them!!
When my sister was killed in a car accident, I had a brother in Tennessee, one in Montana, and one in South Africa and we ALL moved mountains and air (my brother in South Africa had to ride home in a cargo plane) to be there for each other.
When my husband was hit by a car while doing a land survey away from home, my sister closed down her business to take care of my children and my brother’s were on the phone with the doctors (they’re pastors and can “move mountains) and on their knees to the Father before I even made it to the hospital. I received calls in the emergency room from each one of them - just to let me know they were praying!
God is SO good to give me such wonderful siblings! PRAISE THE LORD every day for your family, because God has put each one of them in our lives to lift us up and be there when NO ONE else will! And, for those friends who “stick closer than a brother” PRAISE HIM, too! He sends us exactly what and who we need when we need them!!
THANK YOU LORD!!
Today, my oldest brother, that I haven’t seen in years, is coming to visit!! It makes me think of the verse that says, “There is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.” I’m thanking the Lord SO much for my brothers and my sisters…and FRIENDS - because if I ever find one that sticks closer to me than my siblings, I’m gonna hold on for dear life!
Brothers in Colorado, South Carolina, and Florida and a sister in Florida…all more than 400 miles away. I have no doubt that any of my brothers or my sister would give me the shirt off their back if they thought I needed it. I also have no doubt that they’d move hell and high water to get to my bedside if I called them. I can call them at two o’clock in the morning - and have - to ask them to pray…and they DO!! The same goes for me…Any time of day or night, any where on this earth…If I can make it happen, I WILL be there for them!!
When my sister was killed in a car accident, I had a brother in Tennessee, one in Montana, and one in South Africa and we ALL moved mountains and air (my brother in South Africa had to ride home in a cargo plane) to be there for each other.
When my husband was hit by a car while doing a land survey away from home, my sister closed down her business to take care of my children and my brother’s were on the phone with the doctors (they’re pastors and can “move mountains) and on their knees to the Father before I even made it to the hospital. I received calls in the emergency room from each one of them - just to let me know they were praying!
God is SO good to give me such wonderful siblings! PRAISE THE LORD every day for your family, because God has put each one of them in our lives to lift us up and be there when NO ONE else will! And, for those friends who “stick closer than a brother” PRAISE HIM, too! He sends us exactly what and who we need when we need them!!
THANK YOU LORD!!
I love you, Jesus!!
September, 27, 2010
I was just listening to a song called, "My Name Is Lazarus". If you haven't heard it, it's about the four men bringing the crippled man to Jesus to be healed, and what they just might've said that day.
The blind man - "He healed my eyes so that I could see, but I DON'T BELIEVE"
The man with the withered hand - "He healed my hand, but I DON'T BELIEVE"
The leper - "He cleansed me, but I DON'T BELIEVE"
But then, PRAISE THE LORD, Lazarus steps forth and says, "MY NAME IS LAZARUS, could I testify?" Every one turns because he says that HE was bound by the chains of death and JESUS CALLED HIM OUT!
Isn't that the way we can sometimes be, though?
Well Lord, I know You healed my baby when the doctors said he had a brain infection, but I DON'T BELIEVE You can give my husband a new job... or maybe...
I know Lord, You sent us $8,000 in the nick of time when we needed to stay home and homeschool our boys, but I DON'T BELIEVE You can really come through with my $200 utility payment this month...one more...
Lord, I know You gave me overwhelming peace unexplained when the doctor said I may have the worst kind of cancer, but I DON'T BELIEVE you'll keep my sons safe in their jobs.
Isn't that how it works, though? God brings us to the other side of the worst things and the hardest trials - even the threshhold of death and we forget about it...or at least act like we did. Because, when a teeny tiny rainshower hits our life, we doubt if He can really get us to the other side of it...Does He REALLY have control?
So, remember Lazarus the next time You doubt God can come through for you...or, better yet, remember what he's ALREADY done!! He's all knowing, all powerful, and all loving and ALWAYS has our best interest at heart...LOVE HIM AND TRUST HIM!!
The blind man - "He healed my eyes so that I could see, but I DON'T BELIEVE"
The man with the withered hand - "He healed my hand, but I DON'T BELIEVE"
The leper - "He cleansed me, but I DON'T BELIEVE"
But then, PRAISE THE LORD, Lazarus steps forth and says, "MY NAME IS LAZARUS, could I testify?" Every one turns because he says that HE was bound by the chains of death and JESUS CALLED HIM OUT!
Isn't that the way we can sometimes be, though?
Well Lord, I know You healed my baby when the doctors said he had a brain infection, but I DON'T BELIEVE You can give my husband a new job... or maybe...
I know Lord, You sent us $8,000 in the nick of time when we needed to stay home and homeschool our boys, but I DON'T BELIEVE You can really come through with my $200 utility payment this month...one more...
Lord, I know You gave me overwhelming peace unexplained when the doctor said I may have the worst kind of cancer, but I DON'T BELIEVE you'll keep my sons safe in their jobs.
Isn't that how it works, though? God brings us to the other side of the worst things and the hardest trials - even the threshhold of death and we forget about it...or at least act like we did. Because, when a teeny tiny rainshower hits our life, we doubt if He can really get us to the other side of it...Does He REALLY have control?
So, remember Lazarus the next time You doubt God can come through for you...or, better yet, remember what he's ALREADY done!! He's all knowing, all powerful, and all loving and ALWAYS has our best interest at heart...LOVE HIM AND TRUST HIM!!
I love You, Jesus!!
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
September 25, 2010
The one and only reason is God!! No pills, no doctor, no surgery!!
For almost five months now I've been in severe pain...way worse than even my back!
I just stood up one day and ZAP! The worst pain I've ever felt in my life...including natural childbirth with NO drugs TWICE...shot down my arm! I sat back down and tried the heating pad. It actually seemed to work along with Advil PM - for about a week. It got worse and worse as the days passed! I even tried TWO Advil PM - and slept with a heating pad wrapped around my arm. I tried every rub on analgesic I could find, hot baths, heat and cold packs, and all the different pills they gave me. I'd awaken every hour - or at most - a few hours, crying because the pain was SO bad. I researched everything I could find online and was scared to death with all sorts of awful diseases...NOT GONNA DO THAT AGAIN!!
Not really thinking it was, I went to the doctor to make sure it wasn't my heart. After confirming that it wasn't, he gave me some pain meds, some muscle relaxers, and some meds for nerve damage. He assumed it was the nerve damage in my back acting up.
That was Monday. By Saturday, I could stand it no more - I headed for the emergency room! Pretty sure it was a pinched nerve and unable to do an MRI because of all the hardware, he decided he would at least get me out of pain (My blood pressure had risen to 170/99 - not good) He gave me a shot of Dauladid, Valium, and something for nausea and sent me home to sleep...NOT!! That didn't even phase the pain!
I took the meds my doctor gave me and TWO Advil PM and suffered for three more months, until I had another scheduled appointment. When my doctor asked for a number from one to ten to describe my pain. I squeezed my arm and said, "worse than ten". He gave me a BIG bottle of pain pills and said it was time to see my orthopaedic surgeon. I balked because I've already had four MAJOR back surgeries - UNTIL he said I could lose the use of my RIGHT hand and arm. Then, I gave in and let him make the call.
After another week of sleeping all the time and still being in pain, problems with the doctor and hospital over payment (didn't take my insurance because it's a different state), and having an allergy to the pain meds, I got extremely frustrated and depressed. I did what I should've done on day one...Though BELIEVE ME I'd prayed constantly, I let go and layed it at Jesus' feet!
"God, I can't deal with this pain anymore! I can't take the pain meds and they don't work anyway! The doctors, hospital, and even the pharmacy, is giving me the run around. And, I can't afford to do anything else - like chiropractor or physical therapy. I NEED for You to reach Your hand from Heaven and unkink the nerve that is being crushed."
I lie to you not! Almost immediately the pain was gone!! It has now been two days and NO PAIN!!
God is SO good!!
PRAISE THE NAME OF JEHOVAH RAPHA - GOD MY HEALER!!
For almost five months now I've been in severe pain...way worse than even my back!
I just stood up one day and ZAP! The worst pain I've ever felt in my life...including natural childbirth with NO drugs TWICE...shot down my arm! I sat back down and tried the heating pad. It actually seemed to work along with Advil PM - for about a week. It got worse and worse as the days passed! I even tried TWO Advil PM - and slept with a heating pad wrapped around my arm. I tried every rub on analgesic I could find, hot baths, heat and cold packs, and all the different pills they gave me. I'd awaken every hour - or at most - a few hours, crying because the pain was SO bad. I researched everything I could find online and was scared to death with all sorts of awful diseases...NOT GONNA DO THAT AGAIN!!
Not really thinking it was, I went to the doctor to make sure it wasn't my heart. After confirming that it wasn't, he gave me some pain meds, some muscle relaxers, and some meds for nerve damage. He assumed it was the nerve damage in my back acting up.
That was Monday. By Saturday, I could stand it no more - I headed for the emergency room! Pretty sure it was a pinched nerve and unable to do an MRI because of all the hardware, he decided he would at least get me out of pain (My blood pressure had risen to 170/99 - not good) He gave me a shot of Dauladid, Valium, and something for nausea and sent me home to sleep...NOT!! That didn't even phase the pain!
I took the meds my doctor gave me and TWO Advil PM and suffered for three more months, until I had another scheduled appointment. When my doctor asked for a number from one to ten to describe my pain. I squeezed my arm and said, "worse than ten". He gave me a BIG bottle of pain pills and said it was time to see my orthopaedic surgeon. I balked because I've already had four MAJOR back surgeries - UNTIL he said I could lose the use of my RIGHT hand and arm. Then, I gave in and let him make the call.
After another week of sleeping all the time and still being in pain, problems with the doctor and hospital over payment (didn't take my insurance because it's a different state), and having an allergy to the pain meds, I got extremely frustrated and depressed. I did what I should've done on day one...Though BELIEVE ME I'd prayed constantly, I let go and layed it at Jesus' feet!
"God, I can't deal with this pain anymore! I can't take the pain meds and they don't work anyway! The doctors, hospital, and even the pharmacy, is giving me the run around. And, I can't afford to do anything else - like chiropractor or physical therapy. I NEED for You to reach Your hand from Heaven and unkink the nerve that is being crushed."
I lie to you not! Almost immediately the pain was gone!! It has now been two days and NO PAIN!!
God is SO good!!
PRAISE THE NAME OF JEHOVAH RAPHA - GOD MY HEALER!!
I love You, Jesus!!
September 24, 2010
Today, I think I'll tell you about my back...
Twenty-three years ago, while bustling about trying to get my toddler boys ready for the baby sitter, get myself ready for work, feed the family - You know the drill! - I began to have severe pains in my chest. I hated to worry my husband and get him upset for no reason, so I decided to see if it went away by the time we dropped the boys off.
It didn't. It got worse, and I was convinced that I was having a massive heart attack! I even debated holding my sons a few extra minutes in case I didn't get to see them again. When we got in the car (I didn't want to scare the boys by saying something in front of them) I started sobbing uncontrollably and told my husband we needed to go to the hospital because I thought I was having a heart attack. We did and, after they triaged me, they decided I was indeed showing the classic symptoms of major cardiac trouble...extremely high blood pressure, severe chest pain, shortness of breath. They did several tests, including a chest x-ray.
Long story short, I wasn't having a heart attack...my spine was poking into my heart muscle!! I had severe scoliosis! My curves were 78 degrees and 84 degrees - almost an "S". Changes in the curves were progressing way too fast, so after six weeks to store up enough of my own blood for a transfusion, I was scheduled for extensive surgery. I had to get a second opinion first though, to satisfy my insurance. By the time of the appointment - a week before the surgery - we had gone from needing seven inches of rod to needing seventeen inches!
The word was I would have a seventeen inch Herrington rod placed in my spine and bone bored from my hip to use for the fusion. I would be in an upper body cast for up to a year with NO flexibility. I'd be in surgery for several hours, in intensive care for at least a week. I would be in the hospital for up to a month, and unable to return to work for several months thereafter.
But, you know what? My God knew a better way! Not two days before my surgery the FDA approved the use of the CD Rods. I was called into the office for an emergency appointment to discuss the changes. Instead of one long bar, I would have eight shorter ones (four on each side) with screws and hinges...I'd have a little flexibility bending forward, after all, and NO body cast! The rest of their prognosis would remain the same.
Again, my God had different plans!! I wasn't in Intensive Care for a week. - I was in a regular room in less than twenty-four hours! Was I in the hospital for a month? NOPE!! I was released in a week! I returned to work in only three months - and that was only because it takes twelve weeks for the fusion to set!
God didn't stop doing miracles at Pentecost...I'm a walking miracle!! Every change and every turn of events, He made happen in HIS perfect time - so He could show His greatness!!
Twenty-three years ago, while bustling about trying to get my toddler boys ready for the baby sitter, get myself ready for work, feed the family - You know the drill! - I began to have severe pains in my chest. I hated to worry my husband and get him upset for no reason, so I decided to see if it went away by the time we dropped the boys off.
It didn't. It got worse, and I was convinced that I was having a massive heart attack! I even debated holding my sons a few extra minutes in case I didn't get to see them again. When we got in the car (I didn't want to scare the boys by saying something in front of them) I started sobbing uncontrollably and told my husband we needed to go to the hospital because I thought I was having a heart attack. We did and, after they triaged me, they decided I was indeed showing the classic symptoms of major cardiac trouble...extremely high blood pressure, severe chest pain, shortness of breath. They did several tests, including a chest x-ray.
Long story short, I wasn't having a heart attack...my spine was poking into my heart muscle!! I had severe scoliosis! My curves were 78 degrees and 84 degrees - almost an "S". Changes in the curves were progressing way too fast, so after six weeks to store up enough of my own blood for a transfusion, I was scheduled for extensive surgery. I had to get a second opinion first though, to satisfy my insurance. By the time of the appointment - a week before the surgery - we had gone from needing seven inches of rod to needing seventeen inches!
The word was I would have a seventeen inch Herrington rod placed in my spine and bone bored from my hip to use for the fusion. I would be in an upper body cast for up to a year with NO flexibility. I'd be in surgery for several hours, in intensive care for at least a week. I would be in the hospital for up to a month, and unable to return to work for several months thereafter.
But, you know what? My God knew a better way! Not two days before my surgery the FDA approved the use of the CD Rods. I was called into the office for an emergency appointment to discuss the changes. Instead of one long bar, I would have eight shorter ones (four on each side) with screws and hinges...I'd have a little flexibility bending forward, after all, and NO body cast! The rest of their prognosis would remain the same.
Again, my God had different plans!! I wasn't in Intensive Care for a week. - I was in a regular room in less than twenty-four hours! Was I in the hospital for a month? NOPE!! I was released in a week! I returned to work in only three months - and that was only because it takes twelve weeks for the fusion to set!
God didn't stop doing miracles at Pentecost...I'm a walking miracle!! Every change and every turn of events, He made happen in HIS perfect time - so He could show His greatness!!
I love You, Jesus!!
September 23, 2010
I was given a writing assignment to start my own blog and I’ve been trying to think of one that will glorify God at the same time as giving me practice in writing. I also want to help others that are going through some of the same things I’ve been through and made it to the other side.
So here it is…
So here it is…
Counting My Many Blessings
You see, I’ve been through quite a lot in my forty-six years and there’s a tendency not to see the bright side … all the things that God has brought through the pain.
Today, for instance, started out a pure pity party and ended up PRAISE THE LORD!!
I started out writing the Lord a six page letter reminding Him of all the wrong and bad things in my life - as if He didn’t already know. Then, I started quoting verses and promises to Him (He actually likes that.) in order to ask Him WHEN? (probably not so much) My favorite one was, “I’LL OPEN UP THE WINDOWS OF HEAVEN AND POUR YOU OUT A BLESSING” (my paraphrase) - and then “WHEN LORD? When do I get to be blessed!?!”
I have to laugh because, patient Daddy that he is, He showed me!!
I didn’t even realize it until I went back to proofread it (Yes! I proofread my prayer letters…lol!!)
All of a sudden, after I wrote WHEN? And told Him about something horrible that happened, I began to notice that I’d written this…
Lord, my grandbabies were born too early and had to be placed on life support…They could’ve died…but YOU KEPT THEM SAFE!!
Steven was carjacked, mugged and beaten…He could’ve died…but YOU KEPT HIM SAFE!!
Clayton was in Afghanistan and was hit by an RPG. He lost 25% of his hearing and hurt his arm and face…suffered PTSD and TBI. Now, he’s back over there again…He could’ve died…but YOU KEPT HIM SAFE!!
Danny was hit by a car while doing a land survey. He had to have surgery on both legs and has arthritis in them now…He could’ve died…but, YOU KEPT HIM SAFE!!
My liver almost shut down. I’ve had four major back surgeries…I could’ve died…but, YOU KEPT ME SAFE!!
WOW!! If that’s not a cup running over with blessings, I don’t know what is!! I was pointing out the bad and He was turning right around and showing me His good!
Open my eyes Lord, and help me to see
Your blessings so richly bestowed upon me
You see, I’ve been through quite a lot in my forty-six years and there’s a tendency not to see the bright side … all the things that God has brought through the pain.
Today, for instance, started out a pure pity party and ended up PRAISE THE LORD!!
I started out writing the Lord a six page letter reminding Him of all the wrong and bad things in my life - as if He didn’t already know. Then, I started quoting verses and promises to Him (He actually likes that.) in order to ask Him WHEN? (probably not so much) My favorite one was, “I’LL OPEN UP THE WINDOWS OF HEAVEN AND POUR YOU OUT A BLESSING” (my paraphrase) - and then “WHEN LORD? When do I get to be blessed!?!”
I have to laugh because, patient Daddy that he is, He showed me!!
I didn’t even realize it until I went back to proofread it (Yes! I proofread my prayer letters…lol!!)
All of a sudden, after I wrote WHEN? And told Him about something horrible that happened, I began to notice that I’d written this…
Lord, my grandbabies were born too early and had to be placed on life support…They could’ve died…but YOU KEPT THEM SAFE!!
Steven was carjacked, mugged and beaten…He could’ve died…but YOU KEPT HIM SAFE!!
Clayton was in Afghanistan and was hit by an RPG. He lost 25% of his hearing and hurt his arm and face…suffered PTSD and TBI. Now, he’s back over there again…He could’ve died…but YOU KEPT HIM SAFE!!
Danny was hit by a car while doing a land survey. He had to have surgery on both legs and has arthritis in them now…He could’ve died…but, YOU KEPT HIM SAFE!!
My liver almost shut down. I’ve had four major back surgeries…I could’ve died…but, YOU KEPT ME SAFE!!
WOW!! If that’s not a cup running over with blessings, I don’t know what is!! I was pointing out the bad and He was turning right around and showing me His good!
Open my eyes Lord, and help me to see
Your blessings so richly bestowed upon me
I love You, Jesus!!
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